Attention seeking behaviors

It has been over a month since I have been spanked! And trust me I'm not complaining about that! I don't particularly enjoy being spanked, but I do appreciate the time we spend together after.

Sometimes our schedules can be a little crazy. He works nights, I work days.  Unfortunately, despite his many attempts he can't seem to fall asleep when he first gets home from work. Often times he is just starting to get into his deep rem sleep when I arrive home from work.

Some days this is quite enjoyable. I pack his lunch, throw a load of laundry in the wash, make myself something small for dinner, then curl up in front of the couch with a book, scroll the internet and watch tv, maybe take a nice hot bubble bath.

But... Some times I start to feel very lonely.

So this weekend, when he decided to fill up his free time with tennis and golf with his buddies I started to get a little bitter.

I wanted to stomp my feet

I wanted to hold my breath until my face turned red.

I wanted to slam doors.

I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs.

But...

Instead of doing all those things, I decided to talk to him.

It started when he was playing with the cat and told her she was beautiful.

I even was jealous of my cat!!!!!

"sure tell the cat she's beautiful but what about me"

"I tell you that your beautiful all the time"

"I don't remember the last time you told me I'm beautiful"

"where is all this coming from?"

(Deep sigh)

" i guess I just feel neglected, like I needed a little bit of attention. Part of me is tempted to do something bad just so that your forced to pay some attention to be" (I guess it's true what they say, attention is still attention whether it is positive or negative)

I think I saw his eyes pop right out of his head!

"no,no, no nothing BAD bad, just something to get your attention, like "forget" to replace the toilet paper when it's done, or "accidentally" forget to take my vitamins, or "forget" my phone at home when I leave for the day."

Well, I'm glad I decided to talk to him rather then act on my temptation because we spent a lazy afternoon curled up on the couch, wrapped up in each others arms watching movies rather then me faced down on the bed with a warm red bottom!

Stormy's word game

I have an anxiety disorder and often struggle to fall asleep at night. So a few years ago i started playing a little game. I pick a theme and then go through the alphabet trying to match each letter with something that has to do with my theme. I tend to enjoy doing animals and vegetables, as they are the easiest.  So, there was no way I could turn down  stormy's challenge to come up with a list using ttwd!
So here goes!

Ass (as in your ass is grass!)
Brat
Cane
Discipline
Enough! (one word warning at this house)
Fighting
Grounded (what I was yesterday)
Hand
Icy hot (not something I want to experience)
Johnny lope?
Kisses
Love
Maintance (I stole this one from stormy)
NO "no tv and no internet" what? I'd rather the spanking please!
Oppositional
Privacy or paddle
Quiet time
Respect
Silent spanking
Ttwd
Understanding
Vitamins (my newest rule since i always forget to take them)
Wooden spoon
Xtra lines (stole again, guess I'm a thief
Yes sir
Zero tolerance!

Wow that was kind of tricky, I'll probably be up all night now trying to come up with better ones!

The best marriage advice I've received...

Aside from Stormies recent blog, "just do it" the best advice I've recieved came from a marriage course required by my church before we got married. We followed along The Marriage Book: How to Build A Lasting Relationship Written by Nicky and Sila Lee.

Chapter 5-  the 5 expressions of love really stood out to me, and I frequently go back to that chapter.

The idea is, essentially there are 5 ways to express our love

Loving words
Kind actions
Quality time
Thoughtful presents
Physical affection

The exersize included each of us ranking the about expressions of importance for both ourselves and what we think our partners would rank

So, for myself I ranked it as follows

Words
Actions
Time
Touch
Presents

The big surprise was despite how well I thought I new the man, and how well he knows me... Our ranking did not line up perfectly.

I feel the most love when he tells me that I'm beautiful, or how much we can't believe I'm his wife, but also through his actions. I feel loved when he steps up as an hoh, guides and protects me. I feel loved when he worries about me, and takes action to protect our marriage and my safety.

He feels love when I scratch his head when we are lying on the couch, when I pack him yummy lunches for work and.... Let's just say touch was a big one.

I think this is an important exersize for all couples.

Because it the little things in life right?

I trip away had me showing shades of red

My hubby loves to spoil me! And I am not about to complain about that! Birthdays and holiday's have always been an excuse for him to go a little overboard. So this year my birthday was no exception. On the day of, she showered me with attention, dinner and beautiful earrings. He also told me not to make plans for this weekend. Of course I was going crazy not knowing what he had planned I was thrilled and excited.
We packed up our things on Friday night and set our alarms for an early morning. He shared one small detail about our trip, we were going to a baseball game 4 hours away and needed to leave early if we wanted to make it on time. The alarm went off,and we decided to snooze it another 10 minutes, however instead of hitting snooze I turned it off, which ended up in us sleeping in another hour. After rushing to get ready I dropped him off at the car rental place, ours is getting old and not up to the long commute, and waited for him to pick me up at the house. I thought I would splash on some makeup, which I hardly ever wear and make myself pretty for him. When I heard the car, I ran out not wanting to make him wait. I immediately realized that I just locked to the door with the house keys still inside. We were already running late and didn't have time to figure it out, so we left it to deal with when we got home. We were off to a rough start and my mood, and stress levels were just as rough. I wasn't rude or disrespectful, just really quiet, which isnt like me all at. After a few hours in the car, a large coffee and a good radio station I was starting to feel a little better. When we got to our destination we checked into our hotel. It was amazing. I have stayed in nice hotels before but nothing like this. We had to leave right away to get the game that we were already late for. Luckily the score was 0/0 when we got there and we didn't miss much. In the end my team won earning me some bragging rights. After the game we went out for dinner and drinks at an amazing restraunt and had some time before my next surprise, so we went back to the hotel to get ready and relax. An hour later we were rushing out to our next event, Michael Jackson's circ de soleil! It was the best thing I have ever scene. You would think that would be enough but we left the hotel this morning to go to a golf tournament held a few hours away. Granted this was more for him then me, it was still a nice few hours spent with him.
It's nice to be back home, and yes inside despite locking us out. I had an amazing weekend and now need to start planning for his birthday...
Oh and if you're wondering about the shades of red comment, it's all his fault! He didn't tell me to pack for a full day outside, how was I to know I needed to pack sunscreen! I look like an apple (his words). I hope you had a good weekend too.

About me

I went 45 days without getting in trouble! It should have been longer, but I broke a rule yesterday. The worst part is, I knew exactly what I was doing. I knew when I stayed up til 430 in the morning to finish my book I was going to be in trouble, but I did it anyway. I'm not even going to complain that I got into trouble, cause I knew what I was doing when I did it. As I read from anothers blog, it feels so good until it feels so bad.

Red Booty Woman just posted 7 fun,facts about herself so at the risk of being unoriginal, im going to copy her, only I'm gonna do 5

1. I have 31 first cousins all of which I'm fairly close to.

2. I hate bugs! Not just hate them but I think it's safe to say I have phobia. Especially spiders, it's quite a productions when I have a spider on me including screaming, jumping up and down and crying.

3. I am a huge daddy's girl. I still look at my dad like he hung the moon.

4. I'm a crazy cat lady. I have 3 cats and talk about them like there my kids. However, I believe I am safe from the crazy cat lady title cause I'm married.

5. Hmmm, one more, this is kind of hard... I have 2 tatoos, one that I got under age

and then there was 2.... and 3

So here is a little tid bit of information about me... I LOVE to read!
I love to get lost in a book, swept away to another country, life, or  time. When I read a novel I become the protagonist. I read just about anything and everything. I will become Winston Smith in George Orwell's prophecy of the future, 1984.  Or Aminata Diallo as I am being abducted from my small village in Africa and forced to migrate to America where I will be sold as a slave only to dream of the day that I will once again be free, in Lawrence Hill's Book of Negroes. Or even Anastasia Steele being tied up and spank by my dominant partner for the first time in 50 Shades of Grey. 
I love reading and could read at any time, any place, and for long periods of time.


What's the problem with that??


I get so involved in the book that I am reading that I become obsessed, unable to put my book down until I have finished it. So often I will read a book from start to finished in one day. Even if that means staying up until 4am on a work night... which brings my to rule number 2.


I have a bedtime :(


I have heard other people talk about having a bedtime as a rule but still a little surprised that it is now on my list. 


Although we both discussed that rule #3 should go with out being said... I am not to lie, EVER. Since the hubby works nights he is relying on my honesty to report if I have broken my bedtime rule. And he has ensured me if I break that rule and lie about it, I will be sorry.


Ask and you will receive... to think I just complained about the lack of rules last week and now my list has tripled!!

A little fun

I thought this was cute. My 4 words are:  dramatic, witty, reserved, and naive!

And I hate to admit it but I have been called a few of them once or twice in my life!